All of these things at once

You don't know how it is up here
Laugh a bit, pretend you're clean
And that you'll never touch monsters again
The high flow of it in my veins
The heaven and hell of causality
Yes, maybe I should try
Sing a lullabye and erase it from memory
It's not the same
An angel got fucked in the ass by Satan
A heresy got drowned in smiles and awe
The virgin was bloodstained
The sky was tainted with profanities
A murder was the supreme blessing
All of these things at once
And nothing's awkward
All these channels at once
And nothing on
Hair grows in despair through electronic devices
Smoke is nothing but bodies of dead indians
There's something to be said of all of this
I just don't know what

Change

This is my mind, see how it's fucked up
See it twisting inside
See it blowing away
I'm silent to my own motives
I'm restless in my own dreams
Too fickle to be trusted

Maybe it's time for metamorphosis
Maybe it's time to sing a new song
It won't forgive
It will slowly eat the flesh away
And blow me out
So, maybe it's time to let it all out
I don't know what I want

It shreds my bones
It stops at nothing
It engulfs me
Ravages me and blacks me out
And I stop being the master of myself
The holes in my face
The contradictions in my gaze
Nothing really reaches out to a place
It dominates

I wanna be big, just like my daddy

So, he waved
He waved to the people that expected him
And he smiled
There's no time like that one
No feeling so sharp
Then, he retreated
To this little cottage up the street
He spent his time looking at maps and stars and poems
And suddenly, he said "I'll do it"
And he did it
People cheered some more
The expecting ones were satisfied
They got together in Hotel California
Laughing through the cigarrette smoke
And repeating his name to exhaustion
"It will be good"
Some others cried, but they deserved it
It's not who you are, but who keeps you company
Most of the pure ones nodded in agreement
Something had to be done
Something, exactly that
Then, the silence
He looked around
No one dared to move
He grinned broadly
Went up the hill and shut them dead
And, upon the pile of corpses, he yelled:
"Now I'm big, just like my daddy
Bigger than he ever was"
The silent crowds nodded, too
And cheered him into the high place again
Out of the fear he instilled
Out of the fear he provoked
The expecting ones right behind him
Faces hidden in the shadows
"What next?", he asks
"The world"
"My daddy never got the world"
"But you will"
And the eagle, upon hearing these words
Took a deep last breath
Because she was old and wise
She sighed and plummeted into a rock
Before he would get her
"My daddy never killed the eagle"
"No", the man with the glasses whispered, "But you did"
And they laughed until the sun rose in the sky
For the very last time

X

"Je savais jamais pourquoi j'étais où j'étais"

Shoulders, toes and knees

I'm 36 degrees